- princess hours*

2006-11-24T20:23:00.000+08:00

flying off in 4 hrs time. lol

see you back on christmas! haha...

fancy team jiayou! as well as rifle team...

2006-11-17T21:05:00.000+08:00

ok. so i'm back from hongkong. that was a good experience i should say.

first day met with our tour guide, Michael (whatever it spells). he was nice guy. had some sightseeing around hong kong. victoria peak, xing guang da dao, etc. the walk at the avenue of stars was quite cool. some of the actors carved their hand prints there. the scenery was nice too. and there was this shadow thingy which add some humours to the walk. had dinner at some restaurant and then checked in to hotel. i shared room with jasvin.

2nd day went trekking on Lamma Island. it was quite sian. the walk at perth last year was much more fun. anyway the lunch at the seafood restaurant was damn nice. all the seafood was super fresh. yummy yummy. at night went to lady street for shopping. me wenyi jenny walked around the sports wear street. but we just couldnt find anything to buy. was damn frustrated. partly because i was not feeling well so wasnt quite in the mood of shopping.

3rd day was disneyland. somehow it was not as exciting as i thought. but still quite ok la. the "not exciting" part i think come from the rides. i was looking forward to some "scream to death" rides. but only ended with disappointment. the only quite ok one was probably space mountain. anyway the shows were were quite cool. the 5 of us (me, jasvin, jenny, wenyi, jolene) were making ourselves high and had lots of fun at disneyland. under the guidance and planning of our 'smart" d&p vice head jolene, we finished all the attractions in there. the rain was a bit sao xing though. my cap was totally wet at the end of the day. partly because of the soap snow also. the firework at night wasnt as fantastic as i thought.

last day was a SHOPPING day! feel so much energized. shopped around mongkok with ms seow, jerome, wenyi and jenny. it was a fulfilling day with many shou huo. :D shopping is still the best!

oh ya there was one night when the bus drived past PTS! our whole girl squad went crazy about it. having a nice bus driver, he dropped us outside PTS. we took picture there, standing at where li wen and bo qiao once stood. :D and we saw trainees having night pt wearing exactly the same pt form. and also some wearing the green uniform reporting for duty. that was so cool!!! oh my god.

had three continuous dim sum breakfast. i'm really sian of it. of all the 3 restaurant, the first one at the very good restaurant was comparatively the best.

oh ya must not forget the chou dofu. yummy. it has been so long since i last ate it.

i think my cantonese improved drastically. usually when i watched cantonese speaking hong kong shows, i have to rely on the subtitles. but over there, i can understand most of the hong kong people speaking. :D

i quite like hongkong actually. partly influenced by all the hong kong dramas and movies i watched. and when i stand on the street of hong kong, seeing all those sceneries which once appeared on screen. to some extent it really excites me.

my mum said mayb next year we can have another trip to hongkong after taiwan. :D i start looking forward to next holidays already.

there is exactly one week more before i'm off to shanghai. more shopping is waiting for me. oh yea!

2006-11-12T21:05:00.000+08:00

thx for all who have wished me "happy bday". :D

i was quite surprised that tegoeh was the first one at 12am. didnt know he actually rmb. lol. thx. i didnt even realised my bday has come until i received his sms. and then i purposely went asking my mum about my bday. then she go "tmr......". so i started accusing her not knowing her own daughter's birthday. lol. i was juz being lame.

must thank yanyan, issac, zoe, danise and ian for celebrating my bday. thanks! we had cake for lunch coz we know we will be too full to eat it after dinner. lol. i was damn smart u know. after i cut the cake and distribute it around. i was like "oh shit! i forgot to take a picture of the cake!". -.- anyway it was a chocolate cake with a layer of cheese. my favourite! it was damn nice can. i ate 2 pieces.

after that we went walk around bugis. 3 times to bugis in a week. -.- i'm sian of it oredy.

we had dinner at seoul garden as planned. no student discount. weekend price damn ex can. $25+ per person. well, actually i didnt pay a single cent coz they refused to let me. really thx! ( think i've said lots of thx today. lol)

i'm tired. i'm sleepy. so i shall sleep early today. tmr has to be airport at 7.30am when the flight is like 10.00am. -.-

yay! tmr is hong kong trip! so exciting. SHOPPING! DISNEYLAND! i cant wait for tmr...

2006-11-04T18:40:00.000+08:00

school is over finally! hav been waited long for this day to come...

so ytd got back our result book. got a GPA of 3.60 which is definitely better than my CA1. i'm happy with it :D heehee... and my mum's target for me was 3.40. so i was like asking for a present. but she refused to! her answer to me was "kao de hao shi ying gai de". -.-

after dismissal was supposed to accompany jolene to aljunied to get some stuff then go meiyun house. when we were about to go, then was informed of np briefing which lasted for much longer than i expected. i'm really sorry to jolene. made her wait for me for so long in the end i nvr go... paiseh.

after briefing, some of us had some mass calling. lol. then helped to clean the photo frames which contain our "lie zu lie zong". while waiting for admin board at canteen, some funny things happened...

weiliang: jolene is the prettiest of all. (so sweet!)

jerome: u know triumph?
wenyi: the bra ah.
jerome: not the bra.
wenyi: the bra.
......
jerome shouted very very loudly: NOT THE BRA!!!
i think it was damn funny ah.

we had a 2-hr+ dinner at kfc. in the end reached home bout 10 like tat.

today had abseiling course at bukit timah. only when we reached there, then we realised we have to abseil from a real mountain which was like rather tall. the starting part was hard. i tried a few times before i can get to the "L" shape. then my leg bang onto the corner of the wall which leaves a big bruise with scratches. the wall was like damn slippery. and we were not allowed to hop and walk down. but it was still quite fun la.

btw, i realised i like climbing up mountain alot eh. mayb next time i should join a climbing club. lol.

2006-11-02T21:16:00.000+08:00

there are lots of things to say. but i juz dunno how to say and where to start... haiz...

i am feeling rather pissed with mum recently about something. really dun feel like going home. well, my mum sensed it too since i've been pulling a long face at home. just now she came and asked me what's wrong. uh hmm... i dunno how to explain the "thing" to her. somehow i felt sorry that i shouldnt show a black face to her. after all she's my mum and it wasnt really her fault also (though she plays a part unintentionally).

read a book recently. i had bought it quite some time ago but didnt have the time to read it. the stories are... ok. not as interesting as i thought. and the ending very sad. but i learnt something from it - everyone has ups and downs. anyone can be the main character. every individual is significant and important.

today went parkway after school with some classmates. saw josephine and shearen there. i havnt been seeing for like more than 1 yrs or even 2 yrs. i really miss the times in tkps. secondary life sucks!

recently kept thinking about primary school life. perhaps i'm too depressed from my sian-ed yr3 life. haiz... hope time can rewind and bring me back to p6. being totally free from afternoon lessons. playing all we want at the beach, making a din at the library, having lots of fun at church... oh my god! i wanna go back then.

today...
LA: i was too tired and slept through so didnt watch the movie.
math: as usual, continue sleeping. then got this dunno what stupid mr&ms factor game. -.-
chem: wasnt really paying attention. was filing my nails. lol. my periodic table ws is blank still. brought rebecca's ws home to copy but... i'm just too lazy to open my bag.
history!!! history is still the best man. play taboo and it was interesting and fun. we were making lots of noise i think coz we were too high. mr chiang rocks!

2006-10-23T21:54:00.000+08:00

didnt sleep well for these few days. sleep late and wake up early with only bout 3 or 4 hrs of sleep. zzZ very very tired. so must grap every chance to nap. of coz lessons are the best times for me to rest. heehee :p

congrates to me! i managed to grap a B for LA. which means that can throw away my physics le. :D there would be no C in my average GPA. yea!

went bugis after school today. bugis street the stuff is like getting worse and worse. haiz... anyway bought a new pair of ripples slippers. have been looking for slippers for quite some while le. finally got it today. lol.

yesterday went vivo city with jolene. it's damn big and got alot of people. then most of the shops all opened oredy. we saw project superstar de Silver at Mango. think she's very very pretty. but her yan3 shen2 and the way she walk look like very proud and dao. anyway we walked around for hours until our leg pain.

saturday was with zheng yan at suntec. somehow we just kept chatting and wasnt really in the mood of shopping. we like just walked around without going into the shops. lol. so in the end we just find a place to sit and talk. come to think, she's the only one whom i can talk to about... that.

i think it's really great to have someone to talk to about your troubles. it upsets you more if you keep everything to urself. however, sometimes it's hard to find such a person. somethings you just find it hard to tell some people. so if you have one such friend, should really cherish it!

oh ya. today watched dhs 50th anniversary video. like what mr sng said, it's pretty emotional and touching. it's also quite interesting to see how dunman high and dunmanians have changed over the generations. sometimes somehow i may not like the school to certain extent. but i definitely do have attachment to the school. at times, i feel proud to be a dunmanian. we cant deny the great achievement and reputation dhs has built up. let's work together to make dhs the top jc in future! lol.

2006-10-20T22:57:00.000+08:00

so wed had fancy. i really miss all the fancy trainings we had last year! time really flies. it's like not long ago we were still training for orientation. but now we have to pass it on to the sec2s.

by now got back most of the exam papers except for LA. think should be either B or C. hope can strike a B, then dun have to count my physics! generally, i quite satisfied with my results. at least i know i didnt sacrifice my time for nothing. all the muggings proved to be worthwhile. :D

maths: A+
chem: A
bio: A
HCL: A
history: A
physics: C (suck!!!)

though exam is over, there will still be a math test! what the hell?! suck eh. why cant we just have a peaceful post-exam period?! last two weeks of school le still wan give us test. i seriously dun have mood for it ah. bloody hell.

2006-10-10T20:08:00.000+08:00

havnt been blogging for quite some time. coz... i'm lazy zZZ

so exam was finally over last week. but somehow wasnt as happy and high as i expected. but still feel relieved la. can do whatever i want to entertain myself. dun have to worry what i have not studied, what i'm not sure and blah blah blah....

since it's oredy over, shall not discuss somemore. no point thinking whether i did well or bad mah. what's done cant be undone.

friday after the last paper went SAFRA sakura to eat with sqd mates. this is my 2nd time eating at sakura. the previous time was quite long ago in parkway one. think the parkway one was nicer leh. maybe also because i didnt have a good appetite last week. i rmb i ate damn alot the other time. lol.

after lunch the rest went jasvin house i think. i didnt go coz i had to go bowling with my cousin. my bowling really suck man. ganna trashed like hell. never play with her again! so diu lian lor.

after that we went to meet my mum. intended to eat at some korean bbq restaurant. but it was super crowded. still got a long queue outside waiting. so in the end we went to the chinese restaurant we usually go.

these few days watched finish Silence 深情密码. the plot like not very nice. okok. but its worth watching coz zaizai is damn shuai inside! lol. no wonder i was so crazy over him last time. think he looked more mature and manly now.

gonna finish watching My Girl soon. think its quite nice also. but somehow abit disappointed with later part. haiz... shall juz go and finish it la.

PROTEST! channel u is spoiling gong! the chinese translation totally suck ah. i very disguisted with their voice eh. i cant stand it orh. what the hell?!

today went bugis with some of the squadmates. very long nvr go there oredy. (sijie's secret). realised that bugis got quite a few changes eh. the op shop is gone. got one surf shop at 2nd lvl is gone too. den got few new shops also. oh man how long i have not been going there? or rather how long i have not been going out? haiz... sian

from now on shall starting making up for myself for all the time spent on mugging. yea! hongkong trip! shanghai trip! shopping, shopping and more shopping!!! hooray! gogogo.

oh no! cannot be "from now on" coz still got school and LESSONS. wat the hell? still got new chapters to learn. yea right. i cant absorb a single thing can. pia-ed like siao for exam, now still wan me to study somemore. no way! i'm just wasting time rotting in class.

oh ya. today had a damn INTERESTING and ENRICHING talk. we enjoyed it so much and let it happily eat into our whole recess! ~wow~ and guess what. after the whole session, i dun get a single point of the talk.

I CANT WAIT FOR SCHOOL TO END AND HOLIDAYS TO COME!!!

2006-09-19T23:03:00.000+08:00

happy birthday! Eunice

after sch got hongkong trip briefing... at first thought got bsp de. after tat realised today one cancelled. lol.

den went seoul garden to celebrate for eunice. quite long nvr eat seoul garden le. the meat still as nice. heehee. sure put up some kg today. =( we fried ice cream today! haha. damn funny. rolling the ice cream ball on the bbq plate. and some creamy ice cream oso... think we were going crazy there lor. laughed like nobody's business. think the people at the next table find us very noisy. lol.

after tat went with jolene ong to get the money for our part time work. yea! earned another $50... muz save money for my end year shopping. hehe.

den we went *papaya* to mug. our "lao3 di4 fang1 " very nice to study at hor. haha. such a good environment. :D

reached home at 9+... time past really fast man.

oh ya. btw someone said going to buy me a guitar for my birthday or mayb christmas. omg! i wonder if he really means it. if really, tat's so cool!!! oh man...

2006-09-18T21:52:00.000+08:00

fri had maths extra lesson after school. i've nothing to comment. ahem ahem...

sat supposed to have hsk in the morning. but apparently i OVERSLEPT. the dumb me set my alarm wrongly and i ended up waking up at 10! though the hsk is nothing much impt since it only last for 2 yrs. but i wasted my $53! so retarded la. could have bought a shirt, a bag or a skirt... lol. juz feel very bu gan xin lor wasted the money. if possible, i shouldnt have signed up for it at all in the first place. nvm. what's done cant be undone.

watched the drama "over the rainbow" over the weekend. not as good as i expected. but still ok la. rex is so sweet and cute towards the end.

had some bio and history mugging over the weekend as well. did 2 history essay practice. working on my 3rd one now. bio finished half of the chapters for 2nd revision oredy.

today had extra chem after school all the way until 5+. that was super lame la. the presentations are a waste of time lor. super sianed. and yet there are more to come. haiz...

finished all the revision exercise on A maths textbook.

i think i'm progressing quite well on my revision schedule. sort of ahead of my schedule. (claps claps). such a good time management i have. lol. haha.

hope to get over with eoy as soon as possible. revision very torturing eh.

2006-09-14T22:07:00.000+08:00

some teachers really..... ahem ahem. kept complaining that dun have enough time and yet he/she is the one wasting most of the time. what the hell?! winks~

today the few of us behind damn funny. haha. crazy over 蜡笔小新 and superheroes. 我要看电视! lucky my seat there is so fun. otherwise i would have been bored to death man. junwei's special power is ACT CUTE! javier's is LIE. haha.

wanted to do history revision today de. but... haiz. nvm.

actually i think i quite pro lor. managed to finish first reading for physics, chem, bio and history le. highlighted all the important parts which i have to focus on for 2nd revision. did quite a bit maths practices also. (claps claps) i bet u've never seen me so hardworking before. heehee

watched finish 这该死的爱 last week. it's quite nice. RAIN is so shuai and cool! except that the show is a bit too sad lar especially the ending. =(

watched abit 情陷夜中环2 yesterday. that time watched the 1st serie think it was quite nice.

channel u is going to show 宫-野蛮王妃! :D actually i think it shouldnt called ye3 man2 wang2 fei1 lor. she isnt wilful or violent or anything. lol. anyway the show is really super nice!!! they all so cute. heehee

2006-09-13T23:24:00.000+08:00

heehee. just changed my blogskin. GONG - princess hours rocks! <3 chaegyung + shin

wanted to blog more but... sleepy sleepy zzZZ

shall go sleep le.

gd nitez...

2006-09-04T23:47:00.000+08:00

thank you for lifting up my mood. you r still as influencial to me as ever. one word from you is more than enough. =D

2006-09-04T23:32:00.002+08:00

went school in the morning to pack storeroom and np room. and i saw han cong in the bus. but i wasnt sure whether it was him onot at that time. coz like so long nvr see oredy. so i didnt say hi, neither did he. lol. after some confirmation later on, i was right. it was him indeed. so much taller. lol

most of the morning was spent on tying the mashengs. i always like to tie masheng one. but still feel tired and abit sian after tying dunno how many times... i think we were pro lor. managed to finish all before lunch.

the lunch was funny. the girls were all trying to cry. but everyone cant help laughing, how to cry? only jenny so pro, can really cry. the most i could do was juz 1 or 2 drops of tears. lol. wasnt in the crying mood at all.

on the way back to school super funny oso. jolene,"bu2 yao4 nie1 wo3 de pi4 gu3". the way she said was like damn funny la. then we said "nie1 pi4 gu3 mian3 fei4 de, hao3 bang4 orh". haha

afternoon sorted out the uniforms. many of the berets were like so disgusting. err... some even got hair net inside. stinks~~

then we went tying the big big masheng. spent such a long time trying to figure out the figure-of-eight. but no one succeed. lol.

2006-09-04T23:32:00.001+08:00

went school in the morning to pack storeroom and np room. and i saw han cong in the bus. but i wasnt sure whether it was him onot at that time. coz like so long nvr see oredy. so i didnt say hi, neither did he. lol. after some confirmation later on, i was right. it was him indeed. so much taller. lol

most of the morning was spent on tying the mashengs. i always like to tie masheng one. but still feel tired and abit sian after tying dunno how many times... i think we were pro lor. managed to finish all before lunch.

the lunch was funny. the girls were all trying to cry. but everyone cant help laughing, how to cry? only jenny so pro, can really cry. the most i could do was juz 1 or 2 drops of tears. lol. wasnt in the crying mood at all.

afternoon sorted out the uniforms. many of the berets were like so disgusting. err... some even got hair net inside. stinks~~

then we went tying the big big masheng. spent such a long time trying to figure out the figure-of-eight. but no one succeed. lol.

2006-09-04T23:32:00.000+08:00

went school in the morning to pack storeroom and np room. and i saw han cong in the bus. but i wasnt sure whether it was him onot at that time. coz like so long nvr see oredy. so i didnt say hi, neither did he. lol. after some confirmation juz now, i was right. it was him indeed. so much taller. lol

most of the morning was spent on tying the mashengs. i always like to tie masheng one. but still feel tired and abit sian after tying dunno how many times... i think we were pro lor. managed to finish all before lunch.

the lunch was funny. the girls were all trying to cry. but everyone cant help laughing, how to cry? only jenny so pro, can really cry. the most i could do was juz 1 or 2 drops of tears. lol. wasnt in the crying mood at all.

afternoon sorted out the uniforms. many of the berets were like so disgusting. err... some even got hair net inside. stinks~~

then we went tying the big big masheng. spent such a long time trying to figure out the figure-of-eight. but no one succeed. lol.

2006-09-03T22:35:00.000+08:00

today was suppose to go with my mum to take the air tickets which she has previously booked. but jolene called me said got some work at expo. so i went with her. give flyers again... a day of exhaustion. my arms and legs gonna break liao. can hardly lift my arm already now. but 7 hrs $50 not bad la. however, we can only get the money next thur. and know what, i still have pk course on that day. so right after the course i have to rush from hta to their office. haiz... so troublesome.

tmr morning still need go school for one whole day. =( i'm so bloody tired...

what kind of holidays am i having? the ONLY day i'll be free is next tues. i shall really really treasure it. lol.

shall try to find sometime to study. like what i said previously, must buck up for eoy le.

2006-09-02T19:06:00.000+08:00

do you feel great spoiling my day? again and again, yesterday and today... u think i am unreasonable, then u urself? selfish, inconsiderate freak. u asshole.

fine, it's all over. there's nothing more to say.

so today had the parent-child day. i showed my mum the portfolio while telling her that i wrote crap inside. lol. seriously, i didnt put in much effort for the portfolio lor. do it for the sake of doing.

then i spent the time chatting with my mum. i was super shocked and stunned to know something. my mum had ABORTION before!!! i knew that i actually "had" a baby brother while i was five. i always thought my mum had miscarriage. until today then i know the actual story. my mum said she was allowed to have the baby despite the one-child policy because of some dunno what. but the problem was that she didnt want the baby. omg! i cant believe it man. how could she go abortion?! my poor younger brother...

to huiling, HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!

2006-09-01T00:01:00.000+08:00

today had teachers day celebration. rather sian. me, shujun, jolene ong and meiyun were very late for the concert coz we were rotting away in the classroom. lol. we came right after the eds dance i think.

after much consideration, i decided not to go back tkp. lol.

went out with squadmates to eat and blah blah blah. i realised others all got blog about it already so i shallnt repeat.

feeling sleepy... nitez zZZ

2006-08-27T22:45:00.000+08:00

just came home from marina bay. my stomach is bloody full now after the steamboat. it was so fun fighting over the food. :D but in the end, we still wasted lots of food. lol

yesterday had cip. luckily there wasnt any major cock ups or accidents. we have done the planned activities though the time schedule was totally off. there were a number of last minute decisions made as well.

had lunch at arang. then me and sijie went back school first to accompany the yr1 for the course. i think our squad the lectures are much more fun lor. the 2 of us were saying how our squad had laughed at those stupid things, how talkative we were and blah blah blah... reminds me of TCs. i miss those training times...

then we spent time studying. "debating" over forces. had a bit physics tution. i think i should buck up for end-year-exam le. i have been slacking too much for the year. wish me good luck man. must kick away my laziness and sleepiness. lol.

2006-08-24T20:07:00.000+08:00

shall update my blog le...

have been rather busy.
lots of stuff to settle.
lots of things to think.
lots of assignments to do.
lots of tests to study.
lots of lots of lots...

did rather well for physics and chem test. =) chinese is terrible. this is the lousiest chinese test i've ever done. but come to think, i didnt really take the test seriously. so only have myself to blame. bio marks not out yet. hope it's alright.

last sat had inter-unit and talent-time. i think talent-time the atmosphere is higher. or at least, i was higher during tt. i think gal sqd very creative lor, got alot movements. haha. and the 6 flowers won the dance! yea! so happy. our effort not wasted. think we were so seh lor. look very nice with the ties. lol. after that we had a special dinner. it was quite fun. bring back lots of memories also.

today we had a new sitting arrangment. i think the idea of changing seats is rather stupid lor. one more month to exam and we will all sitting according register eventually. what's the point la. then the new one is 3 by 3 then last row 6 together. last row like so extra . how are the centre ppl going to come out from their seats? squeze from here to there. so troublesome. lol. then many people not happy with their seats. for me it's still ok la. i still sit with rebecca and most importantly i'm still at the BACK! lol.

these few days have been going home rather early. reached home around 4. then busy doing the portfolio and LA essay. and i finally finished them today! feel so relieved.

my mum juz booked the air ticket yesterday. so i'll be going to shanghai on 25 nov and coming back on 24 dec (christmas eve). lol.

2006-08-06T21:54:00.000+08:00

nothing much happened for the week i guess. normal school days with boring lessons. thursday had LA presentation which was totally screwed up. we were not ready at all for goodness sake. but nvm la... anyway it's good to get it over so fast. lol.

friday had np in the afternoon. had only like 1h for activity. so nothing much ba... i dont really like fridays coz the environment very noisy... lol.

saturday we went to help with the direct admission registration thingy. mr teo very nice. then we went to parkway. at the bus stop. then we were trying to jump to see whether can touch the top of the shelter. the smart me sprained my ankle. lol. at first thought wasnt serious or anything so didnt bother. but it started getting worse and worse, super swollen and painful.

then my mum brought me to hospital. she scared got bone dislocation or something. so had x-ray scanning. luckily my bones are still okay. the doctor said some of the muscle tissue there are torn or something. probably will take 1 to 2 week to recover. lol. hope can recover fast otherwise the dance for tt......

2006-08-01T21:17:00.000+08:00

so yesterday we girl squad were... we are gonna be so seh and impress everyone. yay!!! haha

morning i was rather pissed. everything was going against me. i realised running is a very good way to fa xie. actually i've realised it long ago la since...... nvm. anyway i felt ok soon after.

then maths had 2 free periods coz ms low never come. i was playing QQ game using guppy's laptop. long time didnt play liao. so fun. lol. then everyone was saying the game so cute. haha.

today pe took height and weight. again my height is still the same. i've not grown at all for the past 2 years leh. damn it. then my weight exactly the same also. i didnt even lose one single kg la. =( maybe i shall just forget about jianfei... i lack the determination to do it. as long as i dont gain weight then can already la. dont care liao...

i love my room! it's like a mini house lor. got tv, got PC, got dvd player, got a small sofa... then my mum just bought a mini fridge for me today. heehee. and of course there are still my bed and air-con. so shuang right?! my room rocks!!! jealous?

2006-07-30T12:27:00.000+08:00

I'm getting more and more stupid. dont know what the hell is wrong with me ah. did so many foolish things. i cant even stand myself. there are so many things i regret doing. i dont understand why i did la. my brain is not working properly. something's wrong up there.

if you start to dislike or hate me, i wont be surprise. even i also dont like this "me".

2006-07-23T10:09:00.000+08:00

i'm sorry for what happened yesterday. u all said not blaming me, but i know i was at fault.

if i was not keipo and asked for the list at the very beginning; if i could just stand firm by my NO when he asked me for the list yeterday; if i was smart enough and kept quiet about that. nothing would have happened. i was creating trouble i guess.

i suddenly think of huiling. i think i should learn from her character. she's decisive and yet stand firm by her own decision. yes is yes, no is no. no bargaining, nothing. i seriously lack in that can. i'm indecisive and suck at making decision. i'm rather soft-hearted and easily swayed by people and incidents. i must learn to be more firm.

maybe i should treat this as a lesson, learn from my mistake. nothing of this sort is gonna happen again.

2006-07-18T22:22:00.000+08:00

this week i've been going home right after school. it's been such a long time since i last reach home so early

well, by doing so, i can regain my mum's trust or rather strenghten her trust in me. i cant afford to make her angry again seriously. nvm la. going home early isnt a bad thing after all. i enjoyed taking a nap in the afternoon.

2006-07-18T21:57:00.000+08:00

lessons were as boring as usual. then during one of the lesson, i was so bored that i started reading the student handbook. i just realised there are many good & sensible quotes in the handbook. let me share with you some of them.

If you set about doing something, put your heart into it and enjoy it. That way, regardless of the outcome, it will be a positive experience.

If your obstacles bring you down, then let your determination bring you up.

For every sixty seconds of anger, you lose one minute of happiness.

Ability is what you're capable of doing. Motivation determines what you do. Attitude determines how well you do it.
-Lou Holtz
(personally, this is the one i like and agree the most)

You've got to take the initiative and play your game... Confidence makes the difference.
-Chris Evert

Others will undersetimate us, for although we judge ourselves by what we feel capable of doing, others judge us only by what we have already done.
-Henry Wadsworth Longfellow

2006-07-16T21:06:00.000+08:00

yea! back from atc...

overall it's not bad la. more enjoyable than last year i think. at least there isnt that many mosquitoes this year. i only had 2 mosquito bites (last year was around 20). the water tastes nicer also. lol.

1st day nothing much la. just pitch tents and blah blah blah...

2nd day atf. i did 2/3 loops. i didnt try the most difficult one. partly because i scared later embarrass myself. i see the guys do until very... then they said need alot arm power which i dun think i have. also partly because not enough time ba. i looking forward to next year atf!

then was orienteering. nothing much just walk around ubin to find our destination which was like super far. afternoon supposed to have kayaking but cancelled due to thunder and rain. we played some games in the shelter.

then rafting we get to go down the water coz the weather was fine again. lol. our raft was very safe!

at night was campfire. i think the atmosphere wasnt that good but still ok la. our grp the performance not bad i think. we did with grp 5.

3rd day unpitch tents, debrief, prize presentation and break camp...

i think my group not bad eh. grp 6 rocks. my groupmates all quite nice. =) and i remembered all their names including grp 5 as well. hehe. at first we had qiwen sir then renji sir took over. we had fun playing the new type of murderer together with grp 5.

guess what? my mum bought a new dvd player which is to be put in MY room! haha. so happy. she retuned me my phone also. my mum is so nice. heehee. i take back what i said in the previous post. lol

2006-07-11T22:05:00.000+08:00

do you know how pathetic i am now?!

idmi week started last thur. pop was sat. so thur and fri we busied ourselves with the preps from morning till being chased out from school. then yesterday was out for the whole day for idmi project.

guess what my mum thinks? i lied to her and having fun out everyday! i simply cant reason out with her. i had quarantine today and it will continue tomorrow. damn la. cant go out at all. the problem is that i'm not going out for fun but for idmi project.

she even confiscated my hp!!! what the hell?

am i so untrustable? she doesnt even want to trust her own daughter...

2006-07-11T20:17:00.000+08:00

this post is posted for myself. yes, i will never want to forget these memories. i have the urge to write them down before i forget anything... so whenever i want, i can just come back and read, refresh all my memories.

back to sec1, i'd never thought of being an np cadet. i put np as one of choices because well i had to put an uniform group. so i chose it for the sake of choosing. lol. i tried to find mr ang to change cca when the list was first out. but it wasnt successful. oh man i'm so glad that i failed to do so. otherwise i would miss so much fantastic memories!

i remember giving ap attitude to the seniors during lc and the preps. me and jieying just kept talking and dont give a damn to them. to me, prep was a waste of time then. how immature i was... but well, i dont quite remember about the lc.

i think i have changed alot over the 2,3 years. i think the same goes to my squadmates and our whole squad. we were so unbonded then. whatever prep it was, we were so unproductive. simply wasted the time, doing nothing. many of us just want to slack away.

after a few months we were getting better i guess. thanks to yiting mam, minru mam, minghui sir, yuanjun sir, yuanxiang sir. they were so seh. we really looked up to them i think.

looking at the pop04 presents now (the diskette thingy). haha their message to me was "u r so quiet!! open up & talk more hor! hav confidence in whatever ya can." wonder who's the one wrote it. oh well i think i didnt disappoint them. =)

during the golden year it was much better. stressing over sec2 lc. buying the camp stuff together at plaza sing. then tried to lead the sec1 during camp. (to wenyi) i really enjoyed the camp. thanks to the cordinators quanrui sir and shuqi mam. had our very first atc, interact with people from other schools.

gradually grew up under the guidance from our excellent squad ncos - shuqi mam, xiangqi mam, jiamin sir, yongzhang sir and qiwen sir. really learnt alot from them.

i remember how qws tried to push our limits during the pts. there was this barang pti remember very clearly, the very first barang pt we had. all of us were like... omg, when is this run going to end?! many fell out and many were lagging behind.

training year is the most tough one but is also the most memorable one. see us getting more and more bonded through all the trainings, together with our beloved squad ncos - yingshi mam, siyuan sir, jianrong sir and junjie sir.

then came the tcs. seeing everyone get so stress up before training camp, including myself. omg omg, tc is coming!!! then had nco training course, all the MOIs. last pt, last changing parade, last drill session and many more...

at the end of ncotc, received a certificate. looking at it gives me such a great sense of achievement. thanks to the cis who have brought us through - minghui sir, jiamin sir, yiting mam, quanrui sir and qiwen sir.

it was a busy year as well. australia trip and all the fancy trngs during the dec holidays. i really really enjoyed them. we were impressed by the fancy during orientation'04. and now i myself can do it! we kept ourselves busy throughout that holidays but it really worth it. learning the moves, the procedure, the uncountable pumpings for diao-qiang and the mistakes, the bu-qianging after every trng...... i miss all of them!

then came the campcraft comp. the numerous blisters i got from pegging. sijie, jieying and me erecting the flagpoles for dont know how many times in a day. then unwillingly chai them and re-do again and again. we have improved greatly under qrs guidance. from the first time 10+ to 3~4 min for tying and erecting one flagpole. and all the chi-mu.

and there were all the pop preps. the 4 of us walking around trying to get the cheapest stuffs. getting our hands and legs black from burning the wax. getting choked by the smoke and then cleaning up the mess. how we stain our hands and legs with paint and then cursing for not able to clean them or the pains we get from thinner. our nu dui are so productive. and also the hours i spent on sewing the ci shirts.

while the nan dui busied themselves with the hardware stuffs. thanks to them that we could have the gateway in hall on pop.

so much have happened in the past 2 & 1/2 year. i can never list them all out. but no matter what they will remain in my memories. i will never regret joining np.

now our cadet life has came to an end and our nco life begins. i get what all the ex-ncos meant now. when you are a cadet, you wish badly to be an nco. but you are an nco, you will miss the cadet times and wish to remain as one. that's exactly what i feel now...

2006-07-09T12:48:00.000+08:00

POP is over and now we are NCOs... the word "NCO" comes with heavy responsibilities. hope i/we will do well.

yesterday was a super crazy busy day. running here and there, up and down. sweat like hell. lucky yesterday my flu and cough were much better and no more headache. i felt so relieved.

pop is stressful...
pop is touching...
pop is happy...
pop is sad...
pop is tiring...

lots of thanks to the NCOs and the CIs...

coz i just start to getting better from a week of sickness. so my mum didnt allow me to stay overnight out. must go home rest well. so couldnt join the rest of my squadmates at jerome's house. =(

last night i had this very very scary nightmare. i was invited to a friend's house for a party or something. cant remember clearly. the house is a very big. then for some reason i left the crowd. i saw this door very well decorated. so i opened it. inside the room was a little boy like 4 or 5 years old. he looked at me and called "jiejie, jiejie......". dont know why i just had this chill down my spine. feeling very uncomfortable. so i quickly closed the door and left. after that i learnt from that friend that there isnt any such boy in the house. oh god! so freaky...

no wait. that's not the end yet... dont know how come i end up in front of that door again. and again i opened that door again. the room is totally dark except for the lights from the tv. the same boy is sitting up straight in front of the tv. this time round when he see me, he is like so happy. "jiejie, jiejie......" he call and run towards me. i immediately closed the door. but i still see the boy appearing. i was like so so so scared and start running away.

AHHHHH~~ i screamed and woke up in my room. my heartbeat was damn fast can. i think got reach 140/min lor. really damn scary orh. why am i having this kind of dream?!

2006-07-05T21:06:00.000+08:00

oh damn. i'm sick again. flu + sore throat + cough + headache. i guess my mum's right. i've not been eating and sleeping regularly. it's no wonder that i become so weak. but what can i do? i cant possibly eat and eat like nobody's business and see myself getting fatter and fatter. and i cant force myself to sleep when i cant. there's nothing i can do about shi1 mian2.

morning drag myself to the school with a half-conscious mind. i just wanted to finish watching the LA film. it's so cool. then had physics test. i flop it as expected. busy coughing and sneezing rather than writing the paper.

i really cant tahan any longer. applied leave to go home at 10am. slept for another few hrs. up to now, i have already finished one whole box of tissue. my dustbin is flooded with tissue!

shall sleep early today. even after hours of sleep, i still very tired. mum said if tmr still not any better, must go see doctor then. i really really hope that i'll recover tomorrow. fri got tkps reunion bbq and sat got pop. i dont want to miss any and i must not!

2006-06-28T20:47:00.000+08:00

just read someone's blog. so disgusted. i so so so regret reading it. never mind. that gonna be the last time i read it.

for both days, yesterday and today. i got "lectured" by teachers for being late for school, for not having a "good student image" and for sleeping in audi during LA lecture. 0_O but somehow i just cant be bothered. though last time i wasnt like that. if got scolded, i would probably feel bad and also embarrassed, guilty or even sad. but now i just "heck care". scold then scold lor. all i have to do is pretend that i'm listening and nod my head while my mind fly to somewhere else. anyway all the words will enter one ear and exit by the other one. lol

i admit that i'm having some attitude problem sometimes. hmmhmm... even so, what can i do? i cant possibly force myself to have this "good attitude" while i dont right? lol. forget it. let nature take its course. shun qi zi ran. ~~

well i guess i'm behaving ok in np. as in not ap. lol. and somehow i'm more enthu in np stuff than school work. i'm like quite different when i'm in np compared to off-np time. why is this so?? o_O?

i see a very packed schedule ahead. *sigh* but in some ways i think it's good to keep myself busy. no need to think so much. lol.

world cup world cup!!! quarter final liao. it's so hard to predict who will be the sole champion man. all the teams left are so strongs except for ukraine maybe. of course i hope my all-time-favourite brazil to win. but somehow i dont kan hao them since they've already won so many times! pros... germany got quite high chance since they are the host country. if... i mean IF, if ukraine won in the end, i will faint on the spot i tell you. NO NEVER

i miss my dad & i love my mum as well

2006-06-26T21:29:00.000+08:00

i have thought of many things to blog. but the moment i start posting, my mind went blank. i shall just crap whatever i can think of now.

had a super busy holidays. lots of stuff to do. feel so tired. then still have to cheng zhu to watch world cup. so it's double tiredness. =X

today school re-opened. =( so sad. was super sian can. attending school is a waste of time la. haiz... come to think, what have i learnt from the lessons? seriously nothing much lor. i just sleep and day dreaming through the lessons. when there is a test, i would just read the textbook and the notes given. in the end i still pass the tests. so what's the point of attending lessons.

me and jolene ong were saying that why cant we have tltm all the way. or maybe can have 3 days work week. as in compile all the lessons of the week into 3 full days. i dont mind ending late for just 3 days lor. then can have 4 days of rest. cool right?!

after school accompany jolene for dental appointment. then we went walking around chinatown. so fun. haha. =D we were like 2 pigs, eat this eat that. everything also want to eat. lol. haha we ended up super full can.

undone homeworks:
LA assignments
math assignment 1,2,3
math holiday paper
chem online quiz
chem past-year papers
chi book review
chi project
pathetic... -.-

2006-06-20T15:04:00.000+08:00

oh man i'm broke. totally broke!!! sunday went shopping at bugis. bought a new bag and some other small stuffs. took neoprints. quite long never take already. spent $10+ on food and drinks. corochan, tako pachi, chicken chop, bubble tea and blah blah blah. in the end i went home with 80 cents !!! and i still owned xiao tong money. now i have only 10 bucks to spend this week. haiz... poor me

yesterday slept the whole day. damn shuang. haha. watched world cup until 4.30am the night before. yea! brazil won. no surprise. lol. then it was so unexpected that korea draw with france!!! the second half the korean is like taking control of the match lor. what's wrong with france? anyway i'm neutral between these 2 teams. they draw i also happy la. korea is asia's only hope now. jiayou!

i've given up on my homeworks.

2006-06-16T22:28:00.000+08:00

Argentina play very good eh. i think they got alot of teamwork. just like our nu dui . haha. yesterday England's match very exciting also.

have been watching world cup every night these few days. sleep damn late and yet i'm getting up rather early. 9+ like that. i seriously lack of sleep man. got dark panda rings around my eyes already. garh...

enjoyed the nu dui gatherings alot. shopping at parkway, bedok. fun times at hl's house. btw, hl's brother likes me the most. haha. we were so productive la.

yesterday went for the inter-area project again at marina square. jingwen and me that part is almost done! we were the first to finish. hehe. so efficient. after the meeting met meiyun, sherlyn and biyu.

today i accomplished something which i feel so great! so proud of myself. heehee.

sad thing, i still have loads of undone hw. haiz...

2006-06-14T03:48:00.000+08:00

yes yes yes!!! Brazil rawks. Kaka rawks!

finally 1 goal from brazil. so happy =) at least i know i didn't sacrifice my sleep for nothing. before that i was thinking if they draw 0 : 0 hor, i sure start cursing and cursing. or even worse if Brazil lose... nonono. NEVER!

my dear brazil, don't disappoint me. gogogo, more goals !!!

2006-06-10T21:54:00.000+08:00

Hooray! world cup has started!!!

yesterday germany vs costa rica the opening match was rather exciting. quite nice to watch. a good beginning. lol. hope all the matches followed will be exciting. this year germany de condition not bad leh, somemore it's home ground. i think they can get until top 4 lor. lol.

just finished watching the first half btw england and paraguay. yea!!! england leading. england gogogo. my 2nd favourite team. haha...

still BRAZIL is the BEST!!! yoyo. grab another championship this year!

actually come to think, i cant really blame the teachers for giving us so much hw. no time isnt really an excuse. i can chong home for tv for world cup. can find time to watch vcd. can go shopping blogging, etc. yet i'm complaining that i have no time for hw. how contradicting. in fact, it's not that i have no time but i don't bother to spare time for hw. so i shall not complain again. there's nothing to complain about but myself. that's my own problem.

2006-06-05T21:04:00.000+08:00

why am i still at home blogging? shouldn't i be at the sports school for bsp camp?

i am here because i am down with fever AGAIN. this is like my 4th fever of the year already. oh man. what's wrong with my immune system?!

last saturday went for cip in the morning. selling some sort of charity tickets. then rush to city hall for that inter-area project meeting. i felt cheated. that xxx told me there would only be very few meetings. won't take up too much time. that's why i agreed to do lor. BUT in the end, every week also got meeting. so that's called VERY FEW.

yesterday was finally a day of rest!!! finished my physics ws. watched e mo zai shen bian. don't like yang chen lin. but the show is nice la. and he jun xiang is so cool.

this morning went for shooting com. had terrible headache. went see doctor after that. the doctor said i need more rest. i've been too tired and lack of sleep. that's why my body become so weak against virus. yea! i will have a good time resting for the next 3 days.

2006-06-03T00:31:00.000+08:00

havnt been updating my blog diligently. coz i have really no time!!!

last weekend went to work part-time giving out flyers. damn tired. it wasnt as easy as i thought. but a good experience la. earned $80 altogether. but i spent over 20 bucks on food!!! my god. i was such a failure la. just can't resist the temptation. took bus home with jolene but we ended up eating ice cream and twister fries in mac. lol.

monday went wk house for some prep stuff which wasnt put in use at all in the end. lol.

then comes the 3-day ncotc.
lots of memories...
lots of sweats...
and many many more...

today went to our fish&co steamboat dinner at marina bay. ate alot. we even had rice and bee hoon. xiao lor. i first time eat steamboat with carbohydrates food. lol. a family of pigs. haha. esp jolene and javier, huge pile of prawn shells. i damn pro lor. i cut all the big crabs and cooked almost all the jumping prawns. haha. lol. had fun time chatting, eating, laughing. i'm gonna put on weight again !!! damn

i still havnt touch on my homewprk. i doubt if i got the time lor. tmr going for cip in the morning then go city hall for inter-area project meeting. sunday probably going to airport sending them off to south korea. monday shooting com then bsp camp.

i can hardly find any time which i can really stay at home rest and do homework. haiz...

2006-05-24T19:25:00.000+08:00

-ping ping-
-pong pong-
-pang pang-
-piang piang-

have been super slack for the past few days. damn fun also. haha. lol. shall not elaborate in case...

last friday had a very rough bball match. accidentally hit selina's nose and caused serene to have a big bruise on the waist. i felt terribly bad. i'm so sorry.

monday had match with 3J. i was much gentler i guess. lol. kept hesitating on going up to guard/defend. i was sort of afraid of having body contact. didn't want to injure anyone again. though we lost, our bonding, team spirit and friendship will last forever.

sunday had big walk. we didn't finish the whole journey. because some of us didn't have breakfast, so went to suntec eat breakfast. by the time we came out, the traffic back to normal already. so couldn't finish the walk. then we took mrt to changi airport! haha. walk walk eat lunch and went home. quite lame la haha.

i lost my cute cute little piggy today!!! so sad =( i just bought it on sunday lor. not even one week and it's gone. sob sob.

there are so many events clashing in my schedule.
26 may: inter-area project meeting vs campcraft test.
27 may: np activity vs part-time work
31 may: training course vs physics viva
5-7 june: shooting competition vs BSP camp
17-21 june: planned trip to thailand with my mum vs
18-20 june: np malaysia trip

all the teachers think that we have alot of time for holidays. gave us loads of homework. i wonder how am i gonna to find time to do the stupid homeworks.
-LA assignment
-physics worksheets
-chinese assignment (jianbao/video making)
-chemistry online assignments+quiz
-.........

2006-05-15T10:21:00.000+08:00

when i wake up early in the morning, had a terrible stomachache. my mum allowed me not to go school. so ya slacking at home again. tomorrow is another holiday. haha. so altogether i had 11 days of slacking. the weekend followed by level camp then another 5 days off. hooray!

so yesterday was mother's day. i cooked the dinner. black pepper chicken chop+salad+pizza. my mum and zheng yan all said very nice. heehee=) i'm a good cook! chatting with my cousin online yesterday and told him about it. he was like saying i'm gonna be a good housewife in future. lol. i'm more ambitious ok. find a very very good job, earn a lot lot of money.

by the way, zheng yan was at my house yesterday until 11pm. she's my longest friend. as in we knew each other since we were 7 years old. and we are still closely in contact now. we are like grew up together la. used to sleep together, played together, etc. got a period we everytime bathes together also. i think we were about 9 or 10 then. i came to singapore and she also came. so she's like my best friend la. knows everything about me. no secret between us one. my house is like her 2nd home and hers mine, whether was in shanghai or now in singapore. we know each other's parents very well and both our parents good friend also. we promised to be friends forever. and alot of thanks to her for many many things. pardon me that i too lazy to elaborate. she knows i know and that's enough.

i shall start reflecting what i have been doing and thinking for the past 6 months. especially my attitude towards study. i'm getting more and more rebellious at times. i hope to have a change over for the next half year. shall not let my mother down. i know she's been having a hard time as well. for my father also, i am his hope. i want them to be proud of me. yes!

2006-05-11T17:25:00.000+08:00

yo! finally back from level camp!

my mum told me she fell sick on monday night. i remember that time i went perth she also fell sick. she was joking that she can't live without me already. haha. MUMMY, I LOVE YOU ! happy mother's day. =)

thinking back on the camp...

day 1
reached school at 7. set off around 8.30. reached kota tinggi at 11++. crossed the shaky bridge. splitted into our own group. pitched tent. waste alot time. drag drag drag...

then got heavy rain. so in the end my group didn't get to do the low elements. had ice breaker, objective setting, team dynamics. came out with the group name, BOUNCING BAFFALO BALLS. haha. lazy to explain the long story behind it la.

after dinner went for the firefiles river cruise. saw alot of fireflies among the trees. from far it looks like christmas tree. damn cool! caught a few in my hands. then the fireflies like me alot eh. along the way got at least 4 stopping on me-my life jacket, my watch, my leg...

at night slept in tent. my tent mates and the ones next ours were damn noisy ah. had a hard time falling asleep ah though i was damn sleepy.

day 2
after breakfast had campfire prep. went quite smoothly. had some jokes around. we allied with group 4. their name was chocolate. so we combined beome CHOCOLATE BALLS. what are your balls made of? CHOCOLATE! haha.

went on had Indiana Jones. almost everyone fell into the muddy water. i fell down at the third platform.

raft building instructor Aniq chose 5 from each group including me go over the other side of the pond. we just sit down there, wait for our group mates finish building, paddle over then we take over paddle back. slack ah.

after lunch went for flying fox and abseiling. due to time constrain, each one could only do one. i chose flying fox. cool.

side traverse was ok la. quite easy. after crossing, we went on had fun running cross the bridge. lol. then me and huiling sat down at the side. saw people come back from mount panti. some kena leech, got alot blood. scary.

the rock climbing damn hard. no one can climb to the top ah. not even the instructors. can climb half very good already le lor. i climbed until the slant part then can't liao.

the kayaking was ok la. the pond so small. nothing much la.

supposely we have river tubing. but our instructors brought us to a lake. the water there was clean and cooling. very shuang. they told us by right they were not allowed to bring us there. but they said we did very well for the day. so that was our price.

after dinner was solo night walk. got this narrow route among the trees. then alot noises around. don't know what's that la. wasn't really scary la.

day 3
our expedition to Mount Panti. before setting off, we all were worried about the leeches. i tucked my trackpants into my shoes. climbing up damn tiring. saw many giant ants along the way. like 3cm long. got alot worms insects bees... climbing up and down the rock face was cool. never did that before. up at the summit i got bite by leech. i was totally unaware ah. we saw a big fat leech near us. huiling used a small branch cut and poked through it. all the blood come out. then we were like whose blood ah? when we were about going down that time i just realised my ankle got alot blood. i was like oops, i was the one sucked by leech. i totally no feeling one ah. not pain not itchy nothing. the blood kept oozing out for like 1++ hour. my sock and shoe all got blood stain.
i like climbing down, not as tired.

reached back kota about 3.10 bathed packed and finally checked into the chalet! dinner time was damn damn funny. janel's staring game. then andrew expressed his LOVE to janel. damn super funny. our group all laughed like siao ah. had a very long time having our dinner. too busy laughing and talking. going crazy. our group was bloody high ah.

campfire everyone was so high. why were we high? coz we are from Dunman High. shouting screaming cheering entermaining performances sexy teachers. the campfire was fun. at last we all sing the school song together very loudly. first time ever.

had debriefing at one of the guys' chalet room with instructor aniq and ahmin. had a good chat there before going back to sleep. hoorey!!! chalet. my dear BED!

day 4
terrible morning. after breakfast was cleaning. we and the other 2 groups were to clean the toilet! damn suay ah. the toilet bloody disgusting man. oh god. i shall not elaborate on it later you lose appetite for dinner.

many of us got pissed because of...... never hate pe t-shirt and school skirt that much before.

then set off to Jusco. had lunch there. we had only like 1 hour la. supposed to gather back at the gate at 1.50. by the time we finished lunch was already 1.40! so of course we had no time to shop at all. bought donuts on the way back to the gate.

slept through the journey in bus. until after singapore check point, our class started being high. highed all the way back to school. javier was damn funny.

back in school at 4.50. took cab home.

-the end-

2006-05-03T21:47:00.000+08:00

i'm getting more and more not understanding myself.
what that hell am i thinking?
what that hell am i doing?
what that hell do i want?
what that hell is wrong with me?

sometimes i just have a terrible mood for no reason. like last saturday after np activity, don't know why i suddenly erm not really sad but just not happy. sometimes i would go rather hyper. and recently i've grown quieter. just don't feel like talking. everything seems to be boring. not interested in what people say. what's the problem with me?

then since last week, i've been going school later and later. last week reached school just before flag raising. but this week even worse. yesterday i left house at 7. actually i wouldn't be late if i have taken bus. think i was abit crazy or wat. i actually walked to school all the way from home. and i was walking slowly, strolling. didn't even care about the time. in the end reach school at 7.40++. went straight into audi for LA lecture.

today left home at 7 as well. bus came but was damn crowded. i didn't bother to squeeze up. then waited 10 min for the next one. after getting down the bus, those took the same bus as me were all chiong-ing to school. while i was walking slowly casually. the sc at the side gate was about to close the gate and signal to me to walk faster. i didn't care, continue walking. the sc was quite nice la actually. she waited for me to go in before she really closed. so in the end i reached school when annoucing the last annoucement. then this afternoon, i walked home from school. i like walking alone. time to think, time to reflect, etc

i find myself very AP actually. but i just can't help it. i can't help having the "heck care" attitude. how? this year i didn't even care about my studies la. never pay attention during lessons at all.

today ms ng called my name a few times. but i continued lying on the table. maths my table was totally empty. when ms low walked to me, i didn't even bother to take out the ws to pretend. everytime she talk to me, i very fu1 yan3 one. just yea, no, shift my shoulder, etc.

i seriously don't know why am i behaving this way. what is on my mind actually? i have problems with myself.

2006-04-26T21:53:00.000+08:00

tmr: math test & history presentation
fri: chem QA test, bio presentation & MPP bill submission
physics ws today due but the ws still blank
.........
i have a long lists of work to do. but well, i have no mood to do or revise.

morning had LA. i brought my Frankenstein (is my spelling correct?)! and i flipped to the pages mr kan said and i tried to listern. howver, i don't know what he was talking about. totally clueless. i just started to read the book and he said it's finished, going to start on a new one. ?!

after that pe. played basketball throughout. =) happy playing. i like basketball! hope every pecan play like that. besides pe can hardly find time to play la. haizz...

pon-ed physics in the afternoon. went to kfc with eunice for lunch. i ate salad. lol. i'm gonna be a vegetarian. we intended to study maths one. but we end up talking and talking. the study plan = failure. nvm. that's not important. at least that troubling problem has been solved.

SMILE SMILE! =)

2006-04-23T21:20:00.000+08:00

first time blogged so much about npdp. i can say that i only started to enjoy npdp until yesterday. and well, it was the last one also.

oh ya. i heard other sch they also got speech day. also got goh. but they don't get to wear no.1 u! so they were like so surprised when i told them we wore first u on friday. think we were very fortunate. =) i can't bear to return it tmr. grr... but then at least we may still have a chance next year.

watching channel 8 the taiwan variaty show. all the dance very nice. especially the gang guan wu. the girl damn pro man. omg. i like watching dances.

2006-04-23T18:52:00.000+08:00

mum playing mahjong never cook. gave me money to buy food. had kfc first den went buy mcflurry and shaker fries. lol. this is gonna be the last time i eating these fattening food for the next 2 months.

so had npdp yesterday. compared to all the past trainings, yesterday one was considered enjoyable. probably because it's the actual one and the last one. had a run through before the actual parade. many people fall out and got stretches come in carried them out. lol.

we never go alot trainings, so i was made to be reserve. but then i was so called " the only representative of the school", the CI let me attend the parade. i didn't have a flagpole because wed i didn't go. then another don't know what school had 2 flags. CI made them give up one flagpole to me. i felt sorry la but i no choice also ma.

the CIs very nice. except for Ee xxxxx. we were at level 2. space between the ceiling and floor was about 2++ metres. our flagpole was like 3 metres. we held the flagpole slanted. but then once mine accidentally touched the ceiling. suay me. he saw and shouted at me. "WATCH OUT. WANT TO SPOIL IT ISST?"

our contigent CI was very nice and funny with us. he let us listen to other contigent march. "you all heard the dragging of boots? very disgraceful right? i'm sure you all don't want to be as disgraceful as them right?" before parade started, while waiting to march in, he asked everyone to raise up a thumb sign. kept motivate us. but i think he was even more nervous than us, nervous for us.

during parade i stood with cresent girls and tkgs. they were nice to talk to. haha. we were pushing one another, whacking one another's butt. haha. before parade started, everyone shaked hands around, wished good luck. =)

during the parade ok la. went quite well. one part i flopped. because the wind was damn strong. my flag was flying vigorously. when turun i was supposed to put down the flagpole and hold back the tip of my flag. but but the flag went flying and end up covering the GMSS guy's face. i quickly grapped it back. lol

after parade everyone very hyper. while marching back to keep flagpoles, everyone was shouting and singing. CI vs us
one-two-three-four F-L-A-G P-A-R-T-Y
yi-er-san-si wu-liu-qi-ba
satu-dua-tiga-empat lima-enam-tujuh-lapan
left right left right left right left
zuo you zuo you zuo you zuo
kiri kanan kiri kanan kiri kanan kiri
then someone shouted " eh.. tamil tamil!" damn funny.

it started to rain. everyone screamed and chiong-ed. after got into the shelter, we all took out beret and splashed the water around. wipe water on one another's faces.

macpherson eugene didn't know how the fold the flag properly. he asked me help him while he hold mine. then he said "wow... wo na zhe yang hao xue xiao de flag." (i holding such a good school's flag). haha. am i supposed to be proud of dhs?

parade ended 7 plus. then keep things, refreshment and blah blah blah. i drank only coz the food didn't look nice. dragged until about 9 then left HTA. quite a waste of time. think i was rather hyper yesterday also. crapped all the way back in the bus.

oh ya. we owed yy's brother 12 for ATC because we fall in very slow. took our own sweet time.

today intended to revise and do physics ws. but i was tired and lazy. in the end slept the whole afternoon. woke up at 5 plus to watch tv. then went eat. and blogging now... lol.

tmr 2.4 liao. wish me good luck!

2006-04-21T21:41:00.000+08:00

havn't been blogging this week. was busying with the history essay and some stuff. ya.

monday had chem . chem first 2 periods. didn't really study much before hand as i was slacking away my weekend. so the morning pon-ed flag raising to do some last minute revision.

had full dress rehearsal in the afternoon. first time wearing NO.1 U. so everyone was exciting. spent quite a long time in toilet adjust this adjust that. we didn't get to try the dry weather one because it was raining heavily. the lion dance drum was really loud.

can't really remember what else happened on monday. think it was just a normal day, boring as usual.

tuesday had LA lecture for the first 2 periods. the 2 sat behind me was messing up my hair, namely jerome and huanjun. was my hair that fun to play? then was really tired so slept. hoping that the lecture would never end. don't mind having lecture for the whole day. lol.

CME wu lao shi showed us a flash about da chang jin the song. it was quite funny la. the website http://mv.suflash.com/html/mv7524.php

had the leadership training thingy in the afternoon. didn't go goh training. it wasn't as bad as i thought. quite ok la. but i still think it is not worth $17 (before subsidy $25). lol. after that jolene ong asked me if wanna go bugis shopping. but i didn't go. was really tired and there were loads of assignment waiting for me.

wednesday had history first in place of MPP. mr chiang was sick. but his lecture is still as interesting as ever. started topic on saddam hussein.

many people fell sick. our class got 4 absentees. hl, yy and wk nvr come sch also. ms low had mc. so had free interaction and maths period. many people were chiong-ing the LA assignment, including me. i so guai. lol.

had napfa. still sec1 i was most fit la. got 29 points! sit & reach was 49, 1 cm away from A then!
this is what i get this year:
sbj: 181cm --- B
sit & reach: 50cm --- A
shuttle run: 10.9s --- A
pull up: 14 --- B
sit up: 52 --- A
hope i won't flop my 2.4 next week.

after lunch MPP was in library. supposed to do the bill thingy. but then we were slacking. browsed dhs past year books. got alot funny pictures. some teachers look very different much younger. like duh. some look the same. lol. then i just knew that st john girls used to wear nurse suite. i think it was cute.

yesterday the class very empty. 3 absentees plus 5 narrogin hosts. we anyhow changed seats. i moved in front sit with guppy. i realised both of us don't like someone -- ahem ahem. maths as usual i wasn't listening at all. physics we moved to the seats beside window near the corridor. just found out that the view over there very good, right facing the screen. can't blame me mah, never sit there before since sec1.

history went through past year o level paper. mr chiang said end year exam may have 5 or 6 sources to study. but o level is only 4! not sure about structure essay. it's killing ah. only have half an hour to complete eh. why can't we just have pure lecture?!

today speech day. it went well. glad that i didn't really flop, though i almost. =) took pictures then went kfc to eat. hl was eating mac shaker fries in kfc. haha. kk was the big BOSS. heehee. after that i walked home. just suddenly feel like walking, don't want take bus. old airport road is under construction. so i wander through the HDB blocks there and some narrow pedestrian ways. glad that i didn't get lost or stuck. lol

haiz. tomorrow still got npdp. wth. the school said only got one flag. last time campcraft com i remembered seeing 2 lor. so huanjun and me only one can go up. the flag with me so huanjun said i go. and he lazy also la. but actually i don't want go also. but no choice la. so it means that i only get sunday to rest. and i guess i'll be too tired and lazy to do my work.

yesterday someone asked me what it means to me being nco. erm. never really think about it before. we were all just thinking of the posts. these kind of questions never crossed my mind. actually i think his question was good. it really made me start thinking, thinking deeper. ya

2006-04-16T20:27:00.000+08:00

i spent my weekend slacking, sleeping, shopping... and now i suddenly realised i have many things undone.

bio project -- supposed to go discuss with my group mates on fri but i lazy go. me = slacker :p

history essay -- long forgotten about that. did a bit research just now. got sian and i'm slacking now again.

LA assignment -- ?? few classmates asked me just now. i was like "huh? LA got hw meh? what are we supposed to do?"

history presentation -- i'm just gonna to read from the script. lol

maths test -- many of the ws are still blank. never pay attention during maths lessons.

bio practical -- havn't study the ws at all

chem test -- don't have the last part of the notes which seems to be very important (according to ms ng)

i'm not a good student i must say. i would rather crap here, list out the undone things than start doing them. lol. i know that i should change my attitude towards study. unfortunately, my brain refuses to work. the slack chunying refuses to leave my body, my mind. lol. probably i need some pressure, to stress me out.

2006-04-15T22:03:00.000+08:00

nothing went well for the past few days.

thur had a pathetic bbq. was pissed by *** even b4 the bbq started. was sitting on the breakwater. looking at the waves brings me into deep thoughts. went back to the pit the fire like just started. so only ate some noodles and fried rice. everyone was like feeling down. like what miss seow said, "why is your pit so quiet?" felt very men1 sitting down there so went back to the breakwater alone. received a call which simply worsened my mood. was sort of depression after that. went to sit on the sand bed. "played" with the sand, stared at the waves and ~~cried~~ then went back to eat. ate quite alot, kept eating so don't have to think that much. lol. eat until nothing to eat liao then stone there in daze. what a terrible night.

yesterday planned to go Escape with zheng ya. BUT it rained damn heavily. sao3 xing4! then both of us no mood to go out because of the downpour. so in the end i slept at home for the whole afternoon.

today went suntec to buy some stuff. suay me, my slippers spoilt! wth! then i walked like a bai ka ah. so anyhow bought another pair of slippers. it wasn't nice at all but i was left with no choice. waste my money also. haiz. and after a long walk, i still could not find the stuff i want. so basically i wasted the whole day.

2006-04-10T21:16:00.000+08:00

not really in a blogging mood. but since i have nothing else and nothing better to do, i shall crap here...

today the narrogin people came. so sad my host is not here =( our class got 5 of them and 1 of them look very familiar. if i not wrong, she came to talk to us during the social night. and she's probably one of the nco's host. not sure la. caucasian faces hard to remember and recognize. maybe they feel the same towards us as well. lol

during maths/PCCG (both no difference), we had a long and lame self introdution session. as usual, ms low did most of the talking. then the next 2 maths/PCCG get to enjoy air-con in the library media room =D ms low started with her da4 dao4 li3 and stories again. i remember something she said today, about friends one -- "during difficult times, true friends will be there for you" during my most difficult time, there was no one by my side. i have no true friends? not really. it was because i didn't tell anyone about it, kept everything within myself. i just can't bring myself saying all these out, not even to a single friend of mine. deep in my heart, i think i don't trust anyone fully. it's probably unfair for my friends (people really regard me as friend). i'm sorry, i just just can't... i have problem with myself. there's nothing wrong with them. they are great friends. furthermore, i don't like to show the weak side of me, don't like to cry in front of people, not even my parents. i hate this character of mine. how much i wanted to cry out everything. but i just can't. i'm tired of putting on a strong front. but i can't stop myself from doing so. thank god i survived the most difficult time. nothing can be worse than that. i shall start pulling myself together, for myself and by myself. probably i'm born to be a lonely and independent soul.

had goh rehearsal in afternoon. i hate the sun! keep darkening my skin. overall it was quite ok la. walked to bus stop with jolene ong and faith. took 30 with jerome.

oh ya i'm in the same group as huiling for level camp. yea =)

this is gonna be a busy week:
mon -- goh training
tues -- elective + goh training
wed -- getting 1st U
thur -- sportsday + UGD cum bbq
fri -- going Escape with zheng yan
sat -- orchard shopping (movie?)
sun -- ??? finally a day of rest maybe

2006-04-09T14:34:00.000+08:00

what i am going to write below comes from the bottom of my heart. many things happened these two years. i must say i experience a great change in myself for the past two years. i realised how weak how useless i am. i hate myself for the way i behaves.

this is the truth behind me. it's in shanghainese pronunciations...

戈两年发生卒大呵应该斯爸爸呃斯体，从斯体发僧到以才，唔伐晓得哭了都少趟。从来伐晓得原来唔嘎会的哭，嘎脆弱。但斯唔黑要米子，从来伐内窝里乡呃斯体根您嘎港，但斯唔怎呃快要憋塞了，唔顾了怯列塞了，阿有顾伐想活呃冲动。唔老乡听到爸爸呃僧音，但斯又黑根伊通迪话。每趟才听到伊港东样的么斯“唔活伐下去了”，“没您帮唔”……唔听了心黑痛，为啥唔嘎没用场，一诶阿帮伐上伊。昨天伊当迪话拔唔了，听到伊呃僧音唔老开心，但斯当好迪话，唔呃心又层到了底。伊居然港唔年底会期就看伐到伊了！唔哭了，唔又哭了，我哪能有办法伐哭？！唔晓得戈才斯伊自家作孽，但唔伊女儿，唔伐好伐管伊。唔没办法像集他您耶能怪伊，伊斯唔爸呃！唔已在伐求多，则希望伊好济济康康呃，再仓几年，等唔有能力来好好养伊。

妈戈两年辛苦我晓得，但有从光唔老斯对伊发脾气，老伐耐烦。唔晓得戈伐应该，但斯唔就斯控制不了。唔被憋了喘不过气，伐发泄发泄唔真呃要活伐下去了。唔羡慕侬，好跟阿姨港。唔没您好港，没您了解唔。伐管哪能，对伐起！我下趟一定会的好较照顾侬呃。

窝里乡已经够烦了，还要有集它伽西都问题。唔老在意您家哪能看唔，唔黑没朋友。但斯唔发掘唔朋友老都，但斯没一呃好港斯体。唔像斯多余呃，没您真正关心唔。唔想过，假如唔夕特了，估计除了爷娘没您会的为唔哭。勒大家面前，唔老斯武装自家，拿真呃自家康起来，才辜啊！唔想您家子意到唔。但老斯失败。唔想有内朋友，让唔靠靠，唔活了真呃黑辛苦，黑吃力。

2006-04-07T21:29:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY QUANYI

rotting at home for the whole day

2006-04-05T19:23:00.000+08:00

morning was a bit pms. so pon-ed flag raising.

MPP today was rather boring. mr chiang was explaining how to write a bill. felt very sleepy but didn't sleep after all.

yesterday had sore throat. today worse, flu + cough + headache. PE i only ran 2 rounds because the headache was killing me.

the whole morning i was feeling damn cold. thanks for jolene ong's jacket otherwise i will be froze to death during lecture.

lecture today was talking, gossiping, laughing. think mr kan was pissed with us, or rather me. he stopped quite a few times, staring at me, saying "excuse me" "please turn to the front". he so polite. lol.

sometimes i'm rebellious i think. don't like to do what others tell me to do. especially......

after school was sorting out my files. then went talking, playing, walking around. and i got a new name, thanks to quanyi. lol. after that, played a "ball throwing" game. lol. jerome quanyi waisiang were down at the ground level throwing. me wenkai up at the third floor catching. waising first to succeed den quanyi. jerome's volley ball skill so pro, the ball ended in hostel. haha

the moment i reached home, my mum asked me go supermarket with her. then there was a really heavy downpour. we were stuck in the supermarket. waited for like 15 minutes then the rain still didn't stop. so we had no choice but lin2 yu3 hui2 jia1. so now my flu is getting even worse. kept sneezing. water flowing out from nose. grrr... i can't live without tissue now!

2006-04-03T17:53:00.000+08:00

woke up at 6 on saturday. went for npdp. did the parade procedure for 3 times. my right arm was tired, holdin the flag. overall i have no comments. we have no fixed CI, everytime different one. last week one was damn fierce. when march past that time, i peeked at the flag to see whether it's flying nicely. suay me, the CI saw. he shouted at my ears, damn loud ah, i almost go deaf...

we went back vs about 1 plus. then i rushed home to bathe and change. meet up with ruxin they all at orchard. yes APRIL FOOL !!! first one was kaniel. haha. he was told to go tampines. until he reached there, then we told him we were actually at orchard. poor kaniel. then everyone act to be pissed with ruxin. and me, they "poisoned" my coke with lots of chilli sause while i was away. without knowing, i actually drank it. OMG it yucks! there are some more, lazy to elaborate. basically, it was a day full of FOOLS

sunday went to bugis shopping. bought a new bag.. when i reached home, damn tired already. so i didn't bother to write my zuo4 wen2. watched a bit of campus superstar. actually i ok with all the 4 of them. no preferance among them. so sad Adrino not in the final. he damn cute eh. i like him!

i had a very long dream. the whole night i was dreaming that i could not sleep. my mum was in my room scolding me "hai2 bu2 yao4 shui4 ah". when i woke up in the morning, i was wondering did i actually sleep last night. after 5 minutes, i finally realised it was just a dream. damn stupid ah...

didn't get to sleep in class today because i was busy doing my zuo4 wen2. i hate writing scenery compo. don't know what to write la. i started doing it from the first period in the morning and only managed to finish it during the last period of the day.

assembly today. andy and leeyan presented the perth trip. i think it was rather crap. wasted quite alot time on the lobster. the pictures were funny. muahahaha. got andy's funny face, wenkai's weird expression, jolene one looked a bit noob (no offence) and last but not least the orange guy!

went to eat kfc after school. listening to jerome repeating his racist jokes ( he had said in the morning). huiling was laughing like siao ah, lost control. quanyi was shooting ice, zhong4 my face a few times. his shooting = ice + saliva. yee~ haha. oh ya, i poured ice cubes on jerome's head. haha sorry. took 30 home with yy and jerome. kept yawning in the bus. -sleeppy-

lucky me. a few minutes after i reached home, it started to rain very very heavily. i had to turn my tv volume until very loud then can hear.

my mum super nice today. bought home Haagen-Dazs. yummy! i'm craving for ice-cream recently. oh man. i'm gonna be so FAT!!!

today is only monday. 4 more days of sch ahead. sian. then saturday going to have npdp full dress rehearsal. don't want leh. in the flag bearer contigent got SI, got quite a number of NCOs. i'm gonna be so noob la -lance corp- damn it la

2006-03-29T19:25:00.000+08:00

this morning had LA test. I think I wrote full of craps. kept repeating same points. Empire of the Sun itself is crap. lol.

last week PE I slack like siao, 5 rounds 9min 45s. today one didn't slack that much, took 7min 50s. improved 2 minutes. haha.

took 30 home after school. there was this tall, fat lady (sounds familiar hor) kept complaining that the bus very squeezy. she crapped non-stop along the way. damn loud also. I was listening to my mp3 yet still can hear her voice very clearly. I think the people around all took her as a clown lor. after she alight, the few aunties beside me started gossiping about her. said she siao siao one, then look like a bodyguard or something.

had headache as well as stomachache today. before Mr Chiang came in, I was sleeping. then weifu was down there singing and singing! damn noisy ah. I told him to shut up but he ignores. then I got very pissed off. threw the plastic bottle at him. but I missed. it knocked the table. it was quite loud. after that i went toilet wash face to cool down myself.

I'm a slacker. we were supposed to hand in Maths holiday homework on Monday. however, I was still doing it during LA lecture yesterday. up to now, I have not even started on my LA holiday homework. lol

2006-03-26T12:49:00.000+08:00

ytd most of the sqd went 4 kayaking. i couldnt go coz next week 1 will clash wit npdp. it's either u attend both sessions or none... sad

instead, went class outin ytd. we had a guest hu came wit jw -- johnaturn (weiteng). lol... had lunch at ms low's house. some graduated seniors were ther too. saw shuhui ma'am. she very nice... ms low's cookin was not bad. like the german cheese muchroom thingy... had a very fattening lunch ther -- spagetti, fried food, cheesy stuffs, ice cream,etc. i'm gonna b so FAT

i think the class outin was quite crap. we lik did nothin for the day... some ppl left after lunch. the rest went cineleisure 1st while i went home open door 4 my mum coz she 4got brin key. den i meet them up again... we juz walked around cineleisrue 4 nothin. didnt watch movie, didnt shoppin. dunno wat we went ther 4 la... bought 3 pieces of cake 4 javier, shujun n johnaturn. sat in the food court n sang happy bday song 2 them... played truth or dare 4 a while. wasnt really engaged in coz i was thinkin of somethin else...

TRUTH OR DARE -- reminds me of the one i had 2 yrs ago at pat's hs. tat was the craziest n extremist one i had ever played. think we were rather out of mind then... it started normally, lik any other 1. but dunno how it end up wit uncountable hugs & kisses... yes, it was uncountable! at least 30 or 40? i dun rmb n tat doesnt matter. was it fate or somethin tat........... er hmmm. 4get it. think my brain wasnt functionin properly 4 tat day n tat week...

back 2 the class outin... around 7 plus tat time, we intended to go east coast eat dinner n walk walk. some of us were rather reluctant but in the end all agreed... HOWEVER, we end up alightin at paya lebar, eatin at the long john... and tat marked the end of the class outin ! n i think it didnt ended happily too. some ppl were... (shall not elaborate)

i reached home bout 9 plus. the hs was dark n quiet. my mum went 4 weddin dinner... watched tv until 2am plus. didnt use com coz lazy... yes i'm super lazy

today supposed go faith's hs do history project. but we decided to split up work n no need to meet up. finished the research juz now n my part is done... goin to shop for 3 ppl's presents later. they r goin to make me bankrupt ! mon, tue, wed 3 ppl bday 2gether...

tmr -- borin sch gonna startin again. haiz...

2006-03-24T20:09:00.000+08:00

today 4got brin my personal file. nvr brin all the ws. lol... didnt really slp in class today coz was busyin writin TC report. only the last 2 free periods slept a while.
den polished boots for 5 min... sch is juz as borin as ever

aftnoon went 4 npdp. borin too... was doin parade procedure. wat we did? marchin marchin, rusok turun, sedia senang diri. we kept repeatin these for bout 2 or 3 hrs... and listenin 2 the parade intructor talk talk talk kept interruptin the commander, "teach" her how to give "good" commands. i think the female commander gave the commends quite seh lor... den he said the CIs oso. ask them or rather command them blah blah blah... wat's his problem la?! talk so much

at 6 plus, we took bus back... it was damn noisy in the bus. i juz listened to my mp3. cant b bothered... den got this guy sittin 2 rows behind me i think. he started shoutin f***, f*** this f*** tat 4 at least 5 min i think... i couldnt stand it n was pissed. so i shouted "shut up". n he really kept quiet. haha i'm so hiong. lol. den kk turned back look at me... was i really fierce n scary?

and so tat was how i spent my borin day...

2006-03-23T19:40:00.000+08:00

ytd mornin was as borin as usual... aftnoon de history was damn funny. IDI AMIN -- a stupid, mad, childish leader of Uganda. guess wat he did? sent a cargo of VEGETABLE to Britain to help improve Britain's economy. wat a brilliant idea! he said "I love you very much and if you are a woman I would have married you" to the leader of Israel i think. damn funny ah... den got this Romanian leader strangled a parrot becoz it said "stupid Nicu"(Nicu is the son)... the whole history period we were laughin lik hell ah.

changed sitting arrangement ytd. i'm still at the back, but at centre. prefer my old seat. bside the window can look at the "scenery" outside. lol... i like the corner seat lor. very nice to sit n often neglected by the teacher...

ytd i offended some1 n he's pissed wit me. I AM SORRY (if u r readin this now...)

today as usual - slp, slp & more slp... basically nothin much happened la. oh ya i got a new hobby n tat is vandalisin the table. my table is now well decorated thx to me & shujun...

got back LA test today -- lousy marks. next week got empire of the son test. prepared to fail. i've not been listenin 4 all the lectures. class lessons r always slpin. nvr copy any notes at all. didnt even watch finish the film in the 1st place...

2006-03-21T20:58:00.000+08:00

today was very borin except 4 recess... didnt sit at the round table coz really too many ppl. we occupied 2 benches... den terrorize NOR sir outside the canteen toilet. haha... damn gay. GAY PPL RULE !

y do i go sch 4 ? to slp, to day-dream to blah blah blah but not study... LA lecture slept in audi. physics wasnt payin attention. interaction we were comparin hu's more pro wit hand movements. lol... after a gay recess was CME. bio was day-dreamin, spinnin my pen. den math as usual slp... still got elective after sch. didnt know how i actually spent the 1 h. sch n lessons r not 4 study. den y shld we hav ?!

2006-03-20T19:14:00.000+08:00

Damn it la. i asked around n bout 80% of the ppl said cant c my blog de picture... i made some changes. ppl if u r readin this now, plz tag on the left tel me whether u can c the pic of my dear LUO ZHI XIANG. thank u !

i hate sch for 1 thin. make me wake up so early ! the whole mornin i was feelin sleepy lor... fell asleep durin chinese as usual. but i even fell asleep durin HISTORY. it's my first time slp durin history lor. i didnt wan tat but i was really too tired couldnt help it... 3 cheers for me. i finished the log project ! but still got the assignment 1 & 2 to do. lazy to do. ya den LA havnt do oso. i shal juz go n copy someone's... hehe me = bad girl

after sch, stood in the canteen wit jolene, leeyan n jasvin. damn gay la. stand ther 4 very long 4 nothin... den huling sijie came. we shouted in the canteen, think was ap. haha... went to siglap pizzahut 4 lunch after tat. we were damn hyper n noisy along the way la... chat alot gossipped alot too. "bet xxxxx r sneezin now" tat's wat sijie said. haha... jolene kept laughin at sijie like siao. den jasvin n i laughed at jolene coz she was laughin very funny, uncontrollably... got alot funny things happened lazy to elaborate la...

was goin home when yahui called me. so went her hs at telok kurau since it was shun4 lu4... we did somethin very very lame at her hs. u can c it from the tagboard... omg. cant believe tat i was so CHILDISH. muz b bad influence from yh !!! had dinner at her hs, her mum cooked very nice ! den i went home n now i am home... lol

oh ya somethin i wanna mention... huanjun has been niao-ing me 4 the past few weeks. watever i said or did, he wil niao me one... wat can i do? juz 4get it, can nvr outtalk him ah.. sometimes quite funny oso la... lol

2006-03-19T15:43:00.000+08:00

OMG ! i cant believe this man... for this whole holiday, i nvr go out shoppin at all ! except 4 last sat shoppin 4 tc stuff at tm... after tc i nvr stepped out of the house except 4 goin out 4 dinner... i'm rottin in this house ! how did i spent the time? slp, eat, hw, computer & tv... how excitin my life is !

ytd nvr use com, was pia-ing my hw. so guai. lol... but stil i havnt finished them all. oh my gosh, i'm goin to say this again... Y MUZ WE HAV SO MUCH HW ?! dun care la. dun feel lik doin anymor, mornin go sch n copy... for the math project, i cant b bother wit it since no one else doin it oso...

tmr sch re-start liao. rather fast man... goin to slp durin the borin lessons again... but den i think better stay at home lor. at home even more sian, except 4 the computer... in sch can talk, mornin at the space btw 3B 3C. den recess all squeeze at the tiny round table... fun haha... wat a united sqd ! love one another so much...

2006-03-17T12:24:00.000+08:00

omg... i juz couldnt brin myself to start on my hw. hate it to the core...

it's like everyone's talkin bout the early retirement scheme. we know tat the sch is doin for their own good... but is it the best n only way? good intention resulted in lousy action... i believe tat ther r better ways to it. like hav remedial or somethin. lighten their load hold in cca... dun hav to ban them from cca totally rite ?! it's only like 3-4 activities monthly. wil cca really affect tat much ? i doubt so... y cant the sch think in their shoes? plz find out wat is it they really need, the best way to help them. dun assume tat bannin of cca can be so helpful lik tat.

i hate growing up. all the troubles came along, lots of things to fan2. i miss my childhood (sounds so old lik tat)... but really i c those kids happy happy jumpin around, very jealous. y cant we stay as naive n childish as ever? how can i rewind the time? i wan the time go back to 4 yrs ago when i can b 2gether wit my dad n mum. or at least 1 yr ago b4 they really signed... if cant rewind, den plz juz let the time stop at this very moment. i'm afraid of the things tat goin to happen, though i dunno wat r they... i juz hav the feelin tat life's gonna b more n more chaotic.

2006-03-16T17:13:00.000+08:00

i miss tc ! today is like such a long day, kong1 xu1 and boring... had no motivation to do hw at all, i rather hav drill pt and blah blah blah... the 3 days 2 nights were so filled up, not like now. wat a contrast... i dun like this, sittin down ther the whole day doin nothin... SIAN

i miss my sqdmates, i miss the times we spent in tc, i miss the encouragements, i miss the hyper & cheerfulness, i miss the bonding...... i miss everytin in tc !!! it's the first 1 and y muz it b the LAST 1 as well?! tc rawks ! i simply cant get my mind off tc

2006-03-15T23:04:00.000+08:00

3 cheers for training campers !!! we've made it through. nothin is impossible as long as u hav a willin mind - "choices"... feel man3 yi4 wit myself, nvr fall out. i knew once i fall out i would start regrettin. so if dun wan regret, muz endure... den i muz thank siyuan sir, jianrong sir and many other ncos for the pt this mornin... "u can do it!" "i can do it!" "100 steps more. 1 2 3..." =) haha

to sqdmates hu r injured or ill, hope u all get well soon... take care of urselves !

went to kfc after tc, had a fun chat ther n den took taxi home... the taxi driver was quite irritatin talked non-stop. lucky my hs was near, if not... reached home first thing bathe of coz, den slept...

waitin for me next - lots of HOMEWORK + PROJECT ! omg. i hate it man... y muz we hav so much hw ?!

11.00 - lights off. lol... goin to slp liao...

2006-03-12T12:46:00.000+08:00

woke up earlier than i planned. so i shall use the xtra time to blog a bit... i'm lookin forward to tc tmr. wonder wat's goin 2 happen 2 us...

somethin i muz mention... i feel quite touchin recently. b4 tc has ever started, i feel the unity among us. everyone's talkin bout tc. encourage one another...

this wk i guess i'm more normal le. some of u shld hav noticed le. ya =) wat is done cant be undone. since i cant do anythin to change it, i shld juz learn to accept it... it may take some times but i'll juz try my best to man4 man4 xi2 guan4... thx 4 all the encouragement n concern shown. i really appreciate them...

everyone may hav a false front, but tat not necessarily make a person fake. it depends on the reason behind the false front. some ppl r sad but appeared happy, probably they dun wan to worry ppl n dun wan to expose the sadness. they juz wan to keep to themselves... but some ppl act like very sad when they r not actually. they simply wan ppl's attention-*fake*...

so much holiday hw! how am i goin to finish ?! every teacher says: i dun hav much hw for u, juz... when every teacher gives a little, we end up havin alot !
goin to study np tb liao...

1 MORE DAY TO TC (10++ hrs)
jiayou !!!

2006-03-11T22:42:00.000+08:00

today did alot of things. gud progress. ya... shall nt elaborate on it.

plan 4 tmr: slp until 2pm, den wake up read np tb, polish boots n get prepared 4 tc... goin to slp at 10pm...

nothin much to say today la. and i shall nt waste time on bloggin. still got lots of things to do... ya tat's all...

2 MORE DAYS TO TC
jiayou!!!

2006-03-10T20:55:00.000+08:00

had a suay morning... during flag raising, ms fang saw me talkin to quanyi den stared at me. the next moment she came n conficated my socks. 2nd time tis yr oredy. last time was lu han lin... so i went without socks for the rest of the day, lazy 2 buy. it was rather quite comfortable actually...

surprisingly, i passed my physics !!! overall i'm satisfied wit my results. not as bad as i thought...
den i fell asleep durin chinese again. sleepin in class has became a habit of mine. lol
aftnoon went to visit thepaliament house. it was erm... quite ok la. alot of singin in the bus. den junwei n samatha slept "2gether" n every1 started singin weddin song... the paliament house was so quiet which made us sound so noisy. lol... den i was damn tired tat i fell asleep on the way back... zzZZ

came back 2 sch around 5.30. den they juz came back from service day oso... jolene n i wearin sch u n walked past them, it was so guai lan la... den waited them bout half an hour in the canteen...

went 2 kfc for lunch after tat... huan jun keep kickin my leg. bully me la coz i couldnt run (no socks n the shoes were damn big like goin to come out anytime) den in the kfc, alot of spillin happened... started wit yuyang spillin drink on qy's shoulder... den jolene spilled her drink twice!!! den huan jun spilled out his colesaw on wenkai n me ! it was disgustin... n the most disgustin part came about wit keith's fly... the fly was found in keith's drink n he drank it without knowin... den every1 started torturin the fly. it soaked in the drink for very long but didnt die. den huiling took it out. some1 poured mountain dew on it followed by the curry sause den yuyang put ice around it... i could not stand it so put it in a tissue n folded the tissue. huiling n pin hui squashed it ! n of coz it's dead finally... we were makin so much noise n the table was so messy la...

den went to bus stop wit jolene n yuyang. jolene 'bang sai' us took 196. so i took 30 wit yy. reached home at 8...
i'm lookin forward to TC. =)

3 MORE DAYS TO TC
jiayou !!!

2006-03-09T19:55:00.000+08:00

wasted more than 2h in e aftnoon, waitin 4 my viva turn. sian... tmr muz go 4 paliament visit, cant go service day :( today very tired, fell asleep durin math today... fell in love wit ice cream recently, ate alot. goin 2 b damn fat... budden TC can help me jian fei... :p tmr last day of sch liao, but i dun hav any holiday feelin at all. got so much hw. haizz... life is so BORING !!! i hate wakin up so early in e mornin.. i wan 2 slp more !

4 MORE DAYS TO TC
jiayou!!!

2006-03-08T21:55:00.000+08:00

today is a...normal day lol. no npdp(yea!) lessons r as borin as usual except 4 history... history rawks !! strangely, i dun slp in class recently, more guai now hehe... 2 more days den e term end liao, so fast...

i was surprised tat i got 23/30 for my bio. it's so much better than i hav expected. i tot i would fail or at most pass by 1 or 2 marks... nvr got back physics paper today coz mr hong went wit pet rocket. i think i'm goin 2 fail it definitely. almost every1 is failin 4 the physic test. i wont b the exception.. today LA test crap alot. wrote 2 pg n few more lines. a bunch of crap...

{juz some thoughts of mine} it's hard to control one's feelin... u cant force urself 2 b happy wen u r not... though u dun 2 think bout it, u juz cant help thinkin bout it... however, everyone has a false front. u cant possibly express everythin inside of u 2 other ppl... n it's hard to explain 2 others too...

5 MORE DAYS TO TC
jiayou!!!

2006-03-06T23:14:00.000+08:00

today had a very nice n long talk at bedok... dunno y suddenly got so many things to talk n wit ppl u dun really talk to... haha...
tmr classification shoot liao... hope can pass... havnt prepare my uniform. lol
haiz wed got npdp again... sian. need half u still...

2006-03-06T22:08:00.000+08:00

for tis whole term, i've been havin a "heck care" attitude 4 academic... i oso dunno y i am behavin lik tat la... probably becoz of DHP ba... either slp or day dream in class... lol
me = pai ka... got muscle pull... haizz... hope it recovers soon TC comin next wk...

2006-02-27T20:01:00.000+08:00

lol... it has been a yr since i last blog... suddenly feel lik bloggin... 4got my old acc... lol... so created a new 1...
wat am i doin recently? wat am i thinkin? wat do i want? i hav no idea... i feel tat i dun understand myself at all...
my life is not perfect... no one's life can be perfect... and this is not my worst time... nothin can be worse than e previous 2 yrs... i'm get used 2 it but i can nvr accept it... y is tis happenin 2 me?
i can feel e change in me... is it gud or bad ? i dunno... e change made me lost myself... i dunno y am i behavin tis way...
2 huever is readin tis, u may find me very normal... 4 some u may think i am very quiet recently(abnormal)... anyway i oso dunno y is tis so... i juz cant help it... sometimes very hyper, e next moment become "cool"...

by now... u can juz 4get wat u read... ignore it dun tak it 2 heart... juz tak it as crap... i juz wan to fa1 xie4 yi1 xia4